Life after Ketamine.

Hey friends,

It’s been a while since I’ve written here, and it feels good to finally sit down with coffee and let you in on where I’ve been.

I’ve spent the last year fighting for my mental health, trying ketamine treatments when nothing else seemed to help. Looking back, they truly were magic for me. They opened up my mind & sent me forward on a path to get better, helping me step out of the heavy fog. That fog kept me down for way too long. If you’re curious about ketamine therapy, here’s a helpful overview to start exploring.

I don’t know if anyone talks about how strange it feels to “wake up” after being in survival mode, looking around at a house, a family, and a to-do list that have kept moving while you felt frozen. It’s overwhelming, but it’s also a gift to care again.

I’ve been busy catching up on the life I let pass me by while I was so unwell. There are moments I still grieve the time I lost, but I remind myself I’m here now. That’s what matters.

A big change is that I’ve slowed down on reselling. For so long, I carried the weight of making sure our family had what we needed while my husband was between jobs. Now, he’s working again, & I don’t have to carry that alone anymore. It feels lighter in the house, and in me, too.

This space I’ve reclaimed has allowed me to focus more on our family, on actually living instead of constantly hustling. I’m making time to be present with my kids, and even to rest—a word that used to feel impossible.

I’ve also started hiking again and am getting outside, moving my body, and taking in fresh air whenever I can. With my husband working long, odd hours, my hiking time is limited, but I’m holding committed to fitting it in where I can.

Another thing I’ve started doing again is sewing, and I’m absolutely loving it. I’m learning more and getting better with every project, and it’s become a creative outlet that brings me a sense of accomplishment. It’s been fun to watch myself improve and to imagine all the things I can make for our family, friends and home.

I’m also in a season of considering going back to school. It’s something I’ve been thinking about for a long time, and I’m finally working out the details to see if now is the right time to take that step. It feels exciting—and a little scary—but I’m ready to invest in myself and our future in a new way.

If you’re in a season where you feel stuck, or everything feels heavy, just know that you won’t feel like that forever. Healing is slow, and it isn’t linear, but there is life waiting for you on the other side, even if you can’t see it yet.

Thank you for sticking around while I find my footing again. I’m excited to continue sharing this journey with you—one hike, one home project, one stitch, and one breath at a time.

See you on the trail,

Cass